I keep wishing I can control time, as if time is moving too slowly for me. But yet still, the years pass by so steadily. Dreams I have to remember, wishing to freeze time. Now I understand the terms: “Scientists Playing God.” This price is way high for a human but as an immortal it’s possible. I don’t know where I belong. On September 11, 2023, I took a bus from Virginia Beach Virginia to Canal St and Bowery. Never forget Thy Lord is The Almighty One. Be conscious! The sky is the limit, keep pushing on. Like The Notorious B. I. G. wishes from went from ashy to classy. I’m in room 112 where the player dwells. Why you think I’m the client. The people you’re plotting against me with are your co-conspire. What’s a good house hustler’s prayer? We are all whores, we should be multiplying. I never pegged myself to be a philosopher but it’s my way of life via birth. So here I am, philosophying my life through extemporized stories/thesis. I got my arms stretched wide open, I surrendered! Maybe if I’ve lived to see 2077, there’ll be less dirt/murder. Can’t kid myself, but I’ve been feeling like a kid myself. Been smoking on Wall Street corners before weed was even legal. Some fight real hard for O. G. status me, I grew old into O. G. status. Plus as a Jamaican my English is live. It seems as some of these elderly gentlemen are upper case sensitive. You’re letting them be aware and they think of it as disrespectful. Sometimes I wish I was a dumb animal that way I wouldn’t have to converse with humans. I guess I’ll be waiting on an ophanim to teleport me away to the 3rd heavens. *Exousia*

It’s hard to walk on water with people running circles around you in this mad world. My life is something lived for a fairytale. Children get older and I’m getting older too. Can you see my reflection with the snow covered ears? I will start thinking dark if I’m thinking about certain subjects. I don’t even check their posts nor tweets, because they’re fake people. There’s love in my heart but certain people still get cut off. Moonlighting on being an all star maniac. Thinking of dating a nice, sexy porn star. What’s the inches on her waist line? When you can put that house on my tab. If your relationships involve everyone in your circle then it won’t last and is meaningless. Wishing it was me, ten times myself. Time to drink some water, hydrate the list. Stay bow legged like a leprechaun. If you see me falling, would you rescue me? Will you run or would you catch me? When you call I usually come but now I’m playing deaf ears. Running away from the noise and the suffering. When you’re silent, I can hear your mind spinning and speaking. Words of righteousness, do us so much. When will you figure out your journey’s, purposes? Stop working for fame! This is the Revolutionary Era/Times Of Christ/End Of Days, are you prepared? Regardless of the many broken homes, a lot can testify to changes. Yes, I’m broken but my soul is all in. Some hearts are just frozen. Years past, and still can’t sleep. I have to take my problems to The Lord, G. Why do I still be searching for a lost paradise, an American dream? Lost my thoughts right off jump at the door. Words came out off the shore. Even though the brain wasn’t for sure. Where will jam be without the fruits? Don’t ask why so many questions. While struggling lives on and lingering. When will positivity show up at the door? Is it the lack of prosperity why we behave the way we do? What can we do to recreate history and decipate poverty? My heart has been broken so many times now it’s hard to breathe. Wishing I could live by the ocean to wash away my pain through waves. Can’t let life get the best of me. When you try your best but don’t succeed, you are stuck in reverse. While loving someone it goes to waste. What could be worse? What’s your worth? It wasn’t easy coming from Hayes, P.O. Corn Piece, District, Jamaica, West Indese. Muchless growing up in East New York/Flatbush, Brooklyn, NY, 11203 zip code. I move my feet while music playing once it has a soul. Too many lies have been told. Too many words have been spoken. There’s nowhere to hide when it’s time to show love to people, “SL-P.”

Their goals are blacks fighting blacks, blood in the streets are their aim for us. Within every trust there’s tru, rust and us. Peace is what I’m practicing, love is what I’ve shown. My life ain’t a kung fu action movie, of the lonely boy survivor who grew up to be the best fighter. Remembering the time when I used to be a follower, getting caught with Polo ankle socks. If anyone is named Dwayne don’t you follow them, just take my foolish advice. We got to do more studying from an early tender age, then we’ll be so much wiser grown up. I guess you can say, I’ll hit my five year mark in 9 months of being an author or a writer. I took a lot of breaks, just to put myself on. I don’t know when I’ll be able to get out of this rut. When words like, I’m at peace right now can end lives. That’s because you’ve foretold your death. This is coming from someone who has seen the light. Hallelujah!.. It is what we do that defies us, it’s not our memories. I’ve been born more than once so I have more than just one name. If I am what everyone is going to become one day, then you don’t know how lonely this makes me feel. Lost in bias, gun powdered thoughts go silent. What’s softer and sweeter than Werther’s Original? Cause chocolate, I adore it. They have violated me brutally to the point where I’m preeing to take souls. Jesus Christ said that’s not right. SL-P ( show love to people). Just like a flower, I stick my nose in the weed. What do you expect? I’m a pothead! That’s how I roll. The first time I’m someone that I didn’t want to be, a Prophet. Now is the time to renounce violence. Am I coming or going, “Flustered.” *Exousia*

Man made to suffer and women made to feel pain. This is their only aim. Where’d you think you’ll ever see Jamaica changed to Jamdown or Jamrock to the now, Baby Israel. If I was in conversation with people, I would be buying presents every month of the year. Anyway, I think it’s time to take a colon cleanse. Been having great difficulties finding a new home because of my fixed income situation. My financial status is a bother for me but I’m continuing the struggle, it is real. My Father says: “put down gunmanship, you don’t have to pick up The Prophet Manual, just show love to people(SL-P).” The Lord wasn’t just speaking about me when he spoke of being a magician. Some riding on top of trains, surfing while having sex. What else have the minds thought of that we are not doing? Children end up in dirt for surfing trains. Wise up already, Yo! The greatest Jewish commentator Rashi writing in eleventh century says: “The Lord who is our God now, but not (yet) the God of the (other) nations, is destined to be the One Lord… nd (likewise) it is said, “And the Lord shall be king over all the earth; on that day shall the Lord be One and His name One” (Zech 14:9). Shout out to Dr. Eli Lizorkin from Israel. Brought all my pain from the past, mixed with emotional thoughts. As long as I’m still living then I’m on Ephraim, The Battlefield! How easy do we forget? Being fake would make me worse. So I’m managing my health, do what’s working for you! Been out in the streets from a young age, now I’m drinking h2o and asking myself questions. When will I be able to search the galaxy with AI? Some in high and low places try to hold you down to the floor, while you should be stepping. Should I just let loose with ambition? Since a man doesn’t have to explain himself. I don’t let no one stress me cause that’s where pressure is kept. What about me? Should I just stay still in wept? Reading is knowledge and knowledge is power. Keep my past in slashes. Wondering who has it, Suzy or Alice? Not selling my soul for a lavish life! But would rather live life as lavishly without hatred amongst men. Gladly I’m not dark, The Lord had a little Mercy! He knows the effect he has on me, feeling like Jean Wells. I’m not where I want to be but I’m glad for where I’m at. You make me into what you don’t know, Ephraim! Think for me, cause I’ll never break your heart. With me you’re never in darkness. Please let me be someone other than, unknown! Allow me to travel mentally through unknown places. Something just has to be copyright. Whenever you see or hear something you’ll like, that’s what style is! Would seek heaven on Earth without a try. But I had to stop searching and give, SL-P(Show Love To People). Remember that I’ve already said F**King brings Kings. I’ve had stocks and bitcoins on my mind. To me this writing will be a continuous thing for me. Whether or not I’m going to be consistent, is for time and the future. I’m just going to follow my feelings! I’m hoping and wishing even when I stopped, to pray. No need for robberies and I’m not Robert Dinero. I know my days of suffering just begun. Smoking my pain away while praying for better days, like 2Pac. As soon as the weather changes warm, that’s when short skirts come on. I’m not saying I’m better than. I’m saying, I’m not tripping. Feeling like Loyal Flames, break free! When hanging up the #1 Hustler’s hat, then have to pick it up back. It’s hard to stay free. Because there’s always, “Unfinished Businesses.” *Exousia*

I have been dubbed in many names even as a magician. Barnabas and Saul never spoke of sex and church so I’ve been told, “I’ve perverted it.” Thy Lord still bring out the best in me. Man to man is still unjust. You still don’t know who to trust. The only thing that has changed is the fact that it’s not only, your friends who know your secret. If life was just like my cousin’s Ven fried chicken from May Pen Market. Everything would be perfect! I think back on all the physical, verbal and mental abuses over the years and gets irritated. As I’ve said before if I have committed plagiarism it’s because my stories have already been written. These stories I’ll also share from other resources in my opinion of better yet, opinions of me. I should be crying but I just can’t let it go. These are for all the years I should have said something but didn’t. Furthermore, experience comes with age and wisdom comes via humility. If anybody got their ways or say in how their stories are shared, is me. If I was a singer, I would be giving it the best that I got. When can I be able to afford VRBO? I’m in financial drought, compared to someone in the music or any industry. Where’s my lover’s rock? Who can I cling to that’s of the human flesh? Somewhere in my sadness, I know only The Lord completes me. He’s the one I called on during the storm. The one I’ve been leaning on while my leg and my arm are damaged. If I could, I would fly to Paris for dinner. There can’t be fate without destiny and there’s no destiny without faith. Wanting to mimic a feeling from outward bound but ended up, far out! Outcasted by my country while my human rights have been violated, until my thoughts are in the open atmosphere. Since people want to play head games, I’m going to stay to myself mostly. Since some are not understanding, I’m going to still write and share my stories. I can tell you how upset I was, when I was denied retirement. Then I will say that living a good life isn’t a requirement before you die. The more I investigate who Christ is, the more I find out who I am. My father is The Son Of Israel, and I am, Bar-Jesus. *Exousia*

Does one know how it feels to find out that I will end up being blind. This may come to you as a surprise but I wish everyone would believe that they are, special!( Mark 6 verse 4): But Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house.” In (Romans 13 verse 1): Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God. Maybe you’ve even heard the saying that no one is a prophet in their own land? The phrase has its origins in (Luke 4:24) meaning that this phenomenon is by no means new. The basic idea is that people take for granted the things they’re familiar with. A Prophet is a divine inspiration. (in the Old Testament) a person chosen to speak for God and to guide the people of Israel: Moses was the greatest of Old Testament prophets. A prophet teaches truth and interprets the word of God. He calls the unrighteous to repent. He receives revelations and directions from the Lord for our benefit. He may see into the future and foretell coming events so that the world may be warned. Loving God and neighbor is the culmination of the Mosaic law. And it shall come to pass in that day, that his burden shall be taken away from off thy shoulder, and his yoke from off thy neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of the anointing (Isaiah: 10 v 27). A leader who takes advantage of the poor is like a hard rain that destroys the crops. This is the case with, “Bar- Jesus.” He(I )claims to speak with the authority of the name of Jesus (as his very name indicates), but he(I )does not speak what the Lord has commanded. He(I )perverts it. It is Barnabas and Saul who speak rightly the teaching of the Lord, and that results in believing. *Exousia*

I’m a living piece and testimony of who Jesus Christ is and was. Who’s going to solve problems? The galaxy is full of them! The Prophet’s telling you to stop fighting and surrender to Christ’s vision and you will find peace. For the law was given through Moses, but Grace and Truth came by Jesus Christ (John 1 v. 17). I have no need to linger, especially where I’m not wanted. How good it is to see some true colors but when is the change coming? It’s my soul that sparks my heart and keeps it warm. My skies don’t appear to be blue. I know the day my life is over, I will be able to speak and see Thy Lord again. Then we’ll be in heaven and a spell will be cast. Not even the Lord won’t take all of human life. But compared to what I wanted to do, he’ll do more damage and lots of some will perish. Is your heart cleaner than a shore? If you’re a lady, then your sister. If you are a man, then you’re called mister. Soon life can be hotter than the summer. Life can also be haunting. But once the Moon picks up on your reckless dreams. Your fate and luck can change for years to come. I’m waiting for that day, for my fate to pay. Although Thy Lord will not judge me for my sins on Ephraim. I’m staying acourse to peace for love’s sake. I’ll let the Sun be my guide. I’m out of my mind for the bright beautiful sunlight daily. My primal moods are concealed and under control. I’m hungry for a mistress, I never had. Because I am The Son Of Christ, I’m curious if I’ll become one as Thy Lord begotten son did. Am I going to be dupties to the duty of a God? After all is said then done: I’ll be happy to serve my Master in any ways he deems me fit. Is it feasible for me to become The Great spiritual leader I am? I hope my duties, aren’t just to break up fights. It’s peace that I’m waiting for. Why is it that without money you’re feeling as if, you’re less of a man? (Google stated that the moral lessons in The Book Of John 1, verses 29-34: Just like when we trust God, we know that He’ll always be with us through our hardships , also, when we rise from these hardships. Once we realize that it is not us against the world, rather it’s us and our God against the world, we suddenly realize that we don’t have to go through this life alone. I can’t seem to let my love life free. I wanted to be caught up in the rapture like Anita Baker. But my destiny had to become a, “Holy Relic.” *Exousia*

Any planet plants can grow then humanity would survive. No matter what it may be it’s always, him! You don’t want to know how it feels to see things in artistic form and can’t express them in drawings. The truth is dangerous, you’ll have to use it carefully but I’ve abused it. Since Thy Lord loves burnt offerings, why not cremate? It’s good to have good vibes with the female staffs but then I have to keep it professional. Everyone in their mind is special. Do you think you’re special? I’m living my life, these feelings are really nice. I’m getting high, these feelings are really nice. I don’t ask for sympathy, I’m begging for peace on Ephraim! Hard times left strangers thicker than blood. Who are you sponsoring? Who’s your sponsor? Life doesn’t accept passwords on it. Coming from a broken home no hope, we are drowning. A lot of some have clothing needs. So although I’m a blessed child, deep inside I’m frowning. A lot of seeds sown but none grew. A lot of promises are already fulfilled. Thy Lord is so mighty, he’s still at work on humanity. The Sun is still shining, the amount of clouds broken down. Can’t rob and kill, because it’s just madness. When is it time for harvest after hard working days and nights? I still don’t know how it feels to purchase a house? I’ll have to work hard on my credit to get mine. When will I own a G- Wagon? I’ve learned to stay free from being strapped. I don’t root for who’s pulling the trigger. But still fighting hard for peace and love to pour in the human heart. Some don’t use common sense, they don’t have conscience. It seems as if I’m plural, never singular. If everything was my rules, I would be making perfumes. Hands on the steering wheel, God takes care of fools! Although I’m soft spoken my voice ain’t as beautiful as Song’stress, Anita Baker. I took to the sky because I was alive like a butterfly. Who’s going to be my lover? What a magic I’ve felt as Christ walking Ephraim calm. Still wishing, hoping, praying and creating magical energies taken by the sky. Planning for retirement is fan fiction in the day of the life of the creator. I want the life that I can’t have. And I can’t breathe, nor sleep. I can’t be until I’m resting here in peace. I have no one to call my friends to wake me from my dreams. I’ll do what I can, I will do what most won’t. Even computers are trying to change up my verbrages. Tired of explaining reasons not having fun. I wish I could walk on a ticket to the world. When will the truth be @ sail? I’m not just tripping. But I should put on a bake sale when I can. The world is slipping from my hands. So kick my feet up before writing the next line. I know this much is true. When will it be my grand market? Why did I find it hard to write the next line? I’ve been beaten, battered then betrayed. Now I’ve drawn an imaginary line that got me tripping. Remembering when I’m just, “The Client.” *Exousia*

All my memories after death are just complaints. Feeling at peace with myself but how can I hypnotize people to be the same. Even a metal pole rocks with ritz when not sturdy. I spoke on health while some speak of what they can receive. It’s hard to reference things more than vicenial without Goggle. I’m not like Monster within a slow motion fist fight. Honestly I don’t have problems with some, it is people who have problems with me. Legends are myths until someone proves it real. Certain questions are for nerds in a lab coat. A purple flag with a white cross was all I used to see. Earth to Earth, ashes to ashes, dirt to dirt- funeral. I’ll make magic and disappear while you’re watching me. Sometimes I feel as if I’m a lost soul dying to live. Do you believe in wonderland? Material things are not necessities. I’m no rubber and man like Luffy in One Piece. This is no pirates feast. Life is on a handle suddenly, everything is in reach. Certain beats play, makes you stamp your feet. Destiny, hope and dreams will never be vanquished from Ephraim. Follow your dreams no matter how crazy they seem. Live an ordinary life, if that’s what you like. Set foot on Whiskey’s Peak, so to speak. Who do you think they talk about? It’s Royal, they talk about during certain events. Been thinking of ways to make extra cash and monetize my site. Give me something I’m lacking of. To get away, I’m going to vibe out today because they don’t love me anyway. Some dub me as a Rasta man. Any day or any month from A-Z, I’m what you like. I would like to love someone who’s into me. Not a thousand and more options. As a matter of fact right now for the time being, I’m not going to stress myself. Can you understand my plight? It’s difficult to speak of rock stones and be recognized. So I’m speaking about, “Sling-Shot.” *Exousia*

I know I’m not too late on sharing my stories and letting some understand who I am and who is Christ, Jesus. What does it mean to mankind and what good is it to humanity. My mind is doing things that my vessel can’t afford. Been working on self so now I’m @ the Veteran Administration (VA) 5 days a week. When it comes to myself, my is a given so I speak of self. Normally there’s a lot on my mind to speak about but at this time, it’s hard to scramble words. Having been eating breakfast but that’s a matter of fact. @ the dentist now to see Doc. Nothing more uncomfortable than having your mouth open for so long. The Sun is rising and it looks like rain is in disguise. Are you surprised? It seems we made it through another day. Right now it’s 10:15 A. M. and my mouth is numb. Oh, ho, ho, ho… Some did try taking Royal’s life. This really isn’t a laughing manner. I know getting busted down from E-5(BM-2) to E-3(BMSN) Surface Warfare (SW) is part of why I’m considered a failure to some. But I was good at my job and happy with who I’ve become. I’m a self pro-claim Author, Philosopher and Prophet not authenticated as yet by the government. When you’re hurt by some and don’t want to be bothered by people. Now feelings change you have to love some even if you don’t like people. Feeling so much chemistry sometimes with some but in the mood to keep things professional. It seems as if they’ve used word of mouth to destroy people. I remember every word said to me when I was sick in my mind. You cannot live this long and not be stubborn. Jesus said: “I’m the way, truth and light.” Good youth trapped by a system. But yet still, they’ll try to fight against one person. Once you’re around nothing but fraudsters, it’s hard for people to see realness in you. You can’t be the truth if you can’t pronounce your name re`al. They want to close our eyes, silence our voices and deaf our ears. Because they have taken the tools away from us to learn with the exception of Google. Sometimes I feel like running away to space, beam me up Scottie! Even Chinese say speak English when they don’t understand the code you’re using. Been using Kickoff to save some money and watch my credit growth. I’ve realized that I’m trapped. So what do I do? Accept my fate. There’s nowhere to run, no one to protect me. All the fear is out of my system and out the window. Can’t knob the gate like a horse. The only reason I’m afraid of heights is because I think I can fly. I kick rocks, I’ve never stopped. Sometimes you have to place time in writing just like seasoning for food and thyme. In an investigation details matter, no matter if it’s small. The numbers always tell the story. Numbers like I said always tell the score. If some were a fraction, they’ll be sloppy work. I’m not a pine blueberry, I didn’t grow up in Jersey. I would say a lot of things but I know not of God. Who is Marry? Walking the life, lived in the Bible. Welcome to, “Rose’s Lullaby.” *Exousia*