“Me & Myself”

Have I done well? If you ask how I’m doing I’ll say, well! Stay in my home, don’t have no money nor no wealth. I just can’t work! People know what to expect already, even when pressure pelts. The Justice system is not working if I keep getting denied. Things are so expensive now, I don’t even like beef. I have The Prophet Manual in my hands and tried to read. Can’t speak of my last nightmares, don’t even speak of dreams. Lately but I don’t even like to sleep. When you are too real, you get depressed. But it’s still too hard to pretend. Where’s the light that brightens my dark days? Certain things have changed but some stayed the same. Who were the first nations? God, Prophets, Greats and Giants, who alive could have lived those days as is? I’m still not going to act if I’m past perfect if I’ve procured wealth and riches. This life wasn’t my choice, that’s all it is. Looking at the clock, it’s 2:45 A.M. Some have to admit that life without me beside them, is dull. But if I should stay, God will sin for me. Almost time to stop smoking all this tobacco. Still love all sorts of chocolate candies, especially M&M’s with the exception of mint types. I have to admit it. For Heaven’s sake, I still take a sip of her favorite white wine and stay in hotels occasionally. But stress over women, I’m not that incompetent. From the look of things, everyone becomes a traitor at some point. In my heart I’m feeling it but it’s obviously shown physically, I’m without a boo. Only time to consume pain. This is no G.I. Joe but military life isn’t easy plus to mix in with civilians after active duty, difficult. Luckily I’m not some that joined gangs but I understand why some do become a gang member. Tired of life with rain in it. Borrowing without income, where I’m coming from. Amount a teary night, no hearse. More life so I’ve given my life to you, Lord. Never was supposed to live past 25 years of age for real. Someone came to me and asked me, about a specific story if it was real? Thanks to my confidence, I’ve not turned to dust. Obviously I have so much to say, I just can’t store it all and I’m excited. Time to take a break, I’ll be back. Now everyone goes to enjoy breakfast. I am Holy, now I know it. My mind is so strong like a Silverback Gorilla. So I won’t do anything you want me to do, maybe another time. I’m in the mirror, born alone, walk alone, stand alone, talk to myself. Bye, bye, now.Free to call me doctor, the amount of people I’ve given mad grass herbs to. They wanted to hurt me for a long, long, time. Had to make Nadine throw away a love so strong. So much pain with the world on my shoulder. I’m empty according to an X-ray. I’m just following in the footsteps of the greats. You’re there for them, but who’s there for you? “Me & Myself.” *Exousia*